Author: DirtyPony

Hungry ALL the time….. Aching for your touch and taste Constantly. Insatiably. Hungering. What’s wrong with me? Is there anything wrong? –to ache, hunger, long, want for you? How do I learn to control these feelings? I hurt when I can’t talk to you. Your voice, soothes me… even when I accidentally wake you up… Continue reading Hunger……..

A truthful look at my current insecurities….. I hate them and I hate that I am insecure from time to time…. My biggest fear is that you’ll both find each other more intriguing and interesting than I could ever be and that I’ll be forgotten and tossed into the corner, like so many others have… Continue reading Insecurities…… 2.12.2014

She sighs softly, slightly holding her breath before exhaling. “What have I done?” she mutters to herself as she looks around for the thousandth time since waking. A smile crosses her face as she tilts her head. The changes she’s gone through over the last year, all of the little twists and turns that she… Continue reading Hungover 1.14.2014

Confusion Desperation Anxiety These are a few of the things I feel when I think about you and me. I want to help you in your journey, but am I the right “test subject” of your desires? How fair is it to either of us? You’ve told me that you love me and you don’t… Continue reading my reply….. 2.09.2014

anger confusion disgust frustration hatred sadness rage hurt misunderstanding Where does it end? Where the hell did it begin? Can it stop? Will it?? Hate feeling scared and alone, standing beside my beloved. Or is it my beloved? So strange, the stranger beside me. To love someone, so deeply yet not know them. Broken trust,… Continue reading Where to go from here? 4.15.2011