be sleeping…… it’s been so hectic, chaotic, and extremely busy lately….. ugh….
So many changes going on… mostly good ones but one I wasn’t expecting was the one that happened at work…. Yet ANOTHER management change…. I’ve been at the “new” store since November, and my first Manager got fired, and now my “new” manager (JC) is being moved to a different store, and the manager, who used to manage the store in September before he moved to the one JC went to… has moved back… **shakes head vigorously like a dog getting out of the water** Did that just blow your mind?? it still blows mine…… and still keeps me looking for other work.. too many things shifting at work makes me uber uncomfortable… and uneasy…. *blinks rapidly*
The changes at home are cool.. and completely expected and scheduled, as a matter of fact…JJ and I are (finally) moving out of our one bedroom apartment (with 3 cats) and into a spacious two bedroom (still with only 3 cats)…. The packing and such has started making the cats go a little crazy (that and the unexpected flea infestation that the summer has brought along)… her cat, Murry, has been crying almost non-stop since JJ started packing her stuff.. you see, this is the only home he’s ever known in his 3+ years of life.. my boys, Hobbes (6) and Calvin (3), have had at least one move… Calvin’s one move was from the old apartment (with my ex) and into this apartment, and Hobbes’ other move was from before I got Calvin…. I packed most of my stuff today.. I have a few odds and ends to pack, but the bulk of the move is JJ’s stuff… hell, I still don’t even know if I’m gonna have a bed by the time or at least the day after we move…. *sighs loudly* I’m pretty certain I am.. if all else fails, if I can only afford either a Queen size mattress or a complete twin set… I’ll be happy to not be living/sleeping on a couch…
Something has happened to Daddy that concerns me.. he’s pulled a muscle or tendon in his groin… I’m so afraid of hurting him or him hurting himself while having sex and fucking me… *sighs* I know I shouldn’t worry so much about him, but I do… he takes care of me when I’m not well and it’s my duty, honour, and privilege to take care of him when he’s not well…. remembering his aches and pains as to not cause him any undue stress and pain… he doesn’t like pain but he knows I enjoy some…. but even with as much as I do enjoy some pain, I do not enjoy pulled muscles… those are never fun…. and never intentional…. Can I help it that I care so much for Him? This man who has saved me from myself numerous times… who’s still there for me, as I am for him… even when things seem to sound or get weird? It hurts me, the thought of me hurting Him… I’ve jokingly told him that I hate him, but I mean quite the opposite… I’ve called him a bastard and an asshole, but I’ve never, once, meant him any harm… I know he knows it… I care too deeply for him, in all ways, to truly hurt him, at least intentionally hurt him… as I wipe the tears from my eyes at the thought of anyone harming him…. especially myself… I know he’s not invincible.. but damn is he sexy… He laughs and smiles each time I tell him that…
With that being said, he and I are looking for a guy with a cock that works…. I know that sounds odd… at best it sounds narcissistic? Sure…… all guys have cocks… but apparently they don’t all work well? He truly needs someone who can “pinch hit” when it comes to me… so he can have me suck him as I’m getting fucked…. You’d think that sounds simple.. but.. we’re finding….. It. Is. NOT. *sighs* Seriously? Where are the guys with decent sized dicks? I mean…. I know I’m a BBW, but you don’t have to be “that” big to get me off…. my GSpot, according to Daddy, is just inside… I don’t exactly know because I’m typically busy squirming and squirting all over the place… the guy doesn’t even have to be all THAT big.. the “typical” “average” American sized cock (5.1″) would suffice…. but lately, not sure why or where all the “average” ones are hiding, but they’re hiding really well… *makes a whistle sound as if calling for a puppy* Where are you cocky cocks? Come on out and play?? You see… Daddy is around 6.5″ and he swears he’s average…. but, since we’ve been doing 3 somes, he’s greatly out sized each and every one of them…. sure, call me a Size Queen if you will… I’ll admit it… the little ones are fun to play with, but when I want to get fucked by it.. they usually lose their load all over the outside of my pussy… and don’t even come close to pleasuring me…. no, it’s not all about me, but some of it damned well better be about me…
Daddy let me masturbate and cum tonight so I could sleep… my sleep lasted for about two hours then I woke up …. and here I am…. I’ll try to lay down for a brief nap before work after I’ve written this…. yes, Daddy, I realise I’ll only be getting a 30 minute nap, but, to my defense, I did sleep most of the day away…. Thank you, Daddy, for allowing me to cum tonight…. it helped. Looking forward to seeing you soon!